The Arrow That Struck Home

I've been away for 4 and a half months today. Thing is, the longer I find myself away from home, the less I miss it.

Although life was so much easier in Manila, I don't miss it. In Manila, I was surrounded by people who cared about me and loved me. That, to me, has always been my safety net. Whenever I'd run out of gas, I could always call my Mom and in a few hours, my 70-liter tank would be filled. Whenever I needed someone to babysit, I could always call on either of my sisters to do it. Anytime I wanted something to eat, my Nanay Cora would prepare it for me. And there was wakeboarding, and parties, and malls, and.......

Losing that safety net has somewhat emancipated me. Of course there will always be down times when I'd miss that, but I'm learning to live with it.

Moving on is what I've learned to do when problems seem to pile up. Even when they seem to come in bunches, it's okay. You learn to deal with it evey single day. Besides, I wouldn't want to go through life with my eyes shut, or with a closed mind either.

Just the other day, Joel found 4 gray hairs on my head. If I were in Manila, I would've freaked out and headed straight to a salon. Now, I simply don't give a hoot. I have bigger and more important things to worry about.

Having said that, I feel so liberated. And yes, at home.......

From the DailyOM.

The process of evolution can require you to undergo transformations that uproot you. Moving from place to place can seem to literally divide you from the foundations you have come to depend on. Since your home is so intimately tied to the memories that define you, you may feel that you are losing a vital part of yourself when you leave behind your previous house, city, state, or country. And as it may take some time before you fashion new memories, you may feel homeless even after settling into your new abode. To carry your home with you, you need only become your own foundation. Doing so is merely a matter of staying grounded and centered, and recognizing that the pleasures you enjoyed in one place will still touch your heart in another if you allow them.

Your home can be any space or state of being that fulfills you, provided you are at peace with yourself and your surroundings. A person can feel like home to you, as can seasons and activities. If you feel disconnected from what you once thought of as home, your detachment may be a signal that you are ready to move one. Simply put, you will know you have found your home when both your physical environment and energetic surroundings are in harmony with the individual you are within.

Couldn't have said it better.......