Losing Grip
I thought 8 long months was enough to prepare me for this day - apparently not.
For almost a decade, we've never been apart longer than 48 hours. You don't have to be the Dalai Lama to know how long and grueling the next 2 and a half months would be to me.
I though the tear duct was somewhat like a well, that it would eventually dry up - apparently not.
After a week of crying, I find that my tear ducts and gland refuse to dry up. After a week of lacrimation, the tears can't seem to get drained off.
Being without him is like having a big lump on my soul. Everything looks dull. Every part of the house looks empty. Every part of my body feels numb. The air seems icy. And everything - yes, everything - tastes like paper.
It is said that no single pain killer works for everyone - well, except time. So until then, I'll be swimming in wretchedness for some time - say, the next 2 and a half months.
J
I miss all of you.
I miss your big brown eyes.
I miss your leg to ride against.
I am burning with longing to see you. Oh that I could.
Know that I think of you constantly, I miss you terribly, and I love you exceedingly.
I
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posted by Black_Mamba at
6:05:00 PM
13 Comments:
Missing the Hubby, eh? Where'd he go anyways?
IP, To the U.S., for work......
Ah. I have no words to comfort you... I can only tell you to hold on.
hello Ivy ^_^
just wanting to say 'hi' to a friend.. I'm still on leave from blogging ..
about your hubby, do you get a chance to talk to him everyday? .. me and my hubby used to have a long distance relationship before we got married.
hold on there. I know it can be unbelievably tough.
Take care dear :) ..
God bless.
PS. PLEASE give me a shout whenever you need somebody to listen to. I'm a hug away :)
I do sympathize Ivy. It can be hard. In time it gets easier. I promise. Keep busy. That's the only advice I have.
Take care.
~JD
Hi Ivy... I understand and totally sympathize at what you're going through. Although mine isn't as bad as what you're experiencing, I just wanna say I know how you feel and pray that you make it through this.
Florence
www.fsedigitalworx.com
I spent five weeks apart from my soulmate, Ivy. It was hard, but I did it. So can you.
:))) you see, the life gives us situations that we can understand WHAT we have. And to learn the value of persons we have nearby.
But... even this will pass.
Ivy, I can totally relate to how you are feeling. I did the long distance thing for over 7 months and it was sooooo tough. My love went to China on business and I really did feel like we were "oceans apart." Honestly, hang in there. This is a time when you'll truly appreciate how real your love really is.
At the same time you don't know how refreshing it is to hear some one loving their other half so deeply. :) I pray the days until your reunion pass quickly and that your tears are honey to his soul. :)
jon
Ivy dear,i was totally lost and read your posts even the older ones.but somewhat relieved to realize that your hubby is gone for work abroad :)
hang in there!you just need time to adjust.everything will be alright,you`re a tough mom/woman :)
ghee
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my gosh.
i don't even know you,
i got here through karl, the frogster--lured in by the word:pinay.
and then i got sucked in, like ghee thinking something terrible happened to joel (you know, the worst)
after combing through your site and doing extensive research, i have discovered that:
1. he is in the states and not eternally away.
2. though you wish you had longer limbs, your extremities look just fine to me.
3.i agree with you about bratty children being made and not born.
4. there is a vast collection of gay words i should brush up on lest i become called a Luz-something. I would rather be a winona.
5. you have the spunk to hang in there in the absence of your spouse.
cheers,
chesca
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